Tumblr is my only release to get this out of my head, so sorry everyone your going to hear it anyways. The message is sent, you called its official. This past two and a half years with you ill never forget. The sad part is that its not the lack of love we have for each other. For its plain to see we love each other so much but you admitted to loving yourself more and that’s the downfall of it all. You have this stupid notion in your head thinking your going to be alone forever and that’s not true, i failed in getting you to see that but maybe some lucky girl will get you to change your mind. Heartbreak is real when you feel it this much its easy to see how people can die from this. Not to get too cynical or emo about it, for i have too much to live for to let it go down that path. It hurts cause we realize that maybe the distance was what did it. I dont think it helped and i dont think we can go backwards its real this time. I thought i was prepared but you never are, i wish i could just fast forward to the part where it hurts less, I moved to a new place and all my friends are on a three hour time zone fast asleep on the other side of the country. I feel so utterly alone now that i dont have you either. Its hard to see the bright side, when all i want is you to hold me and make the hurt go away……..